8. Rob, why this website? Rob,为什么要做这个网站？

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When I made myself know in januari 2010 some fans mailed me and asked me about my memories of Barbara. I started writing down my memories. As those fans read more stories, they noticed that a Barbara appeared they never knew that had existed. As one fan wrote 'reading the stories is like pealing an onion, every story is removing a layer from the Barbara known to the public getting closer to the Barbara as she was in real life'.

Then the discussion started what to do with these memories. The fans had very different opinions. as one fan wrote "I have no doubt that there are still so many people interested in her. We all have fond memories about her, even after so many years. Meanwhile, I personally feel that we shall both respect her and her family's privacy and be very careful in releasing any thing might hurt her/them. Your may have no idea about how crazy those HK reporters were and still are." While another fan said beautifully "Barbara was both private and public so who is to say your stories of her and your past should not be shared. It's only fair to think that you were a prominent part of her short life and your story should be documented in order to salvage her humanity. Ultimately, my thoughts are it's been almost 25 years since her death. She deserves to be remembered and known in different light. Any stories you tell is not going to shatter any reputation she built. She was an idol - every idol has flaws (she was human). We all are but she just had a bit more of sparkle the world was deprived of too soon."

I think that the fans of Barbara that remained fan even after 25 years are very special fans and not the sensation seeking gossip fans. For those fans I made this website. To show what kind of wonderful and complex person Barbara really was, who did not have an easy life. Maybe it will make people understand more why she made certain (dramatic) decisions in her life

几个月前我在网上表露身份后，有些影迷给我邮件问我关于Barbara的记忆。我开始记录下我的回忆。当他们看了这些回忆后，他们觉得看到了Barbara的他们从未知道的一面。当其中一个影迷写道，"读这些故事仿似剥洋葱，每个故事仿似揭开一层Barbara不为大众所知的一面，从而离真实的她更近一些。"

之后我们讨论了如何处理这些回忆，影迷们有着不同的观点。其中一个写道，"我肯定还有许多人对她感兴趣。即使是这么多年以后，我们都有关于她的美好的回忆。同时我个人觉得我们都应该尊重她和她家人的隐私，任何可能会伤害到她/他们的内容，都需要特别小心。你可能不了解香港的记者们有多疯狂。"另一个影迷优美地写道，"Barbara既是个人的也是公众的，谁也不能断言关于你和她的故事，以及你的过去不应该和大众分享。你是她短暂生命的重要的一部分，你的故事应该被记录，作为她人性一部分的记忆。最终我的想法是她已经离世25年了。她值得在另一个角度下被回忆被了解。你所讲的所有故事都不会有损她已经建立的名誉。她曾经是偶像，每个偶像都是有瑕疵的（她是人）。我们也都是一样的人，只是她有过更耀眼的瞬间逝去的光芒。"

我想， 在25年后还能追随Barbara的影迷们是非常特殊的。他们不会是追求轰动新闻和八卦的影迷。为了这些影迷们，我做了这个网站。

(thanks to Natalie for the translation)